Lying in bed beside my snoring mother.
Her snoring sounds more like groaning at some points..
worries me.. i think people groan in their sleep
when they feel burdened or bothered by something.
Helped her massage her legs just now..
and i thought to myself for
how long more can i do that for her :(
Sigh.

I feel so trapped in this world..
This constant drive to do well in my studies
makes my mind go gaga.
At the end of the day we're worth nothing more than
a pack of 30 cents fertiliser.
But life still goes on.
Guess I just have to push on.

My brother and my sister in law just went out on a date
as my mum and me can take care of their kid.
How sweet is that??!
Seeing my sister in law so excited when she dolled up
and my brother so handsome. HAHAHAHAHAHA

I totally want that when I get married.
Guess all girls are suckers for romance.
Married or not married. ADMIT IT.

I will make sure the next time I love someone,
it will be my last.
I dislike any sort of drama, whining, complications.
I can't stand it.
It just shows you're not serious about the other party.
I think a relationship should be like 2 best friends being together.
You have quarrels yes, but at the end of the day
you just laugh at it or talk it out! No need to re-enact some
dramatic breakup scene.
Passion doesn't last forever, but love does.
Either that,
or i'll be single and surrounded with 3 cats and a dog.
HHAHAHAHAHAHA that would be lovely too.

But I would like to have my own kid of course.
I think it's an experience to be a parent.
It will definitely cure my childish and selfish ways.
To have to put the needs of the child before my own.
I would certainly like to see myself doing that.
I sometimes feel like I'm too selfish.
Bet my mum will laugh at me.

Life is so much more than earning money or having the
most brilliant brain. These things don't matter at your death bed.
Only your family, the way you lived your life and God will matter.
I would love to dedicate my life to raising children who love God,
and also serve the church if possible.
I sound so old.
Pardon me.
It's just that I don't want to live my life
just by living the moment alone.



Biomedical science..
I really hope I can do research in the future.
But first, I need to slog me guts out.

and good night.